2014 Scrapbook

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.Films.
(first viewing only)
1. The Invisible War ★★★★
2. Quartet ★★★½
3. Hyde Park on Hudson ★★
4. The Heat ★★★
5. Drinking Buddies ★★★
6. The Intouchables ★★★★★
7. The East ★★★
8. The Square ★★★★★
9. Riddick ★★★
10. The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug ★★★★
11. Before Midnight ★★★★
12. Parkland ★★
13. Short Term 12 ★★★★
14. Girl Most Likely ★★
15. Urbanized ★★★★
16. The Way Way Back ★★★★
17. Byzantium ★★
18. The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones ★
19. About Time ★★★★
20. Captain American: The Winter Soldier ★★★★★
21. Milius ★★★★
22. Maleficent ★★★
23. Austenland ★★★
24. Edge of Tomorrow ★★★½
25. Her ★★★½
26. Guardians of the Galaxy ★★★★
27. Secrets of Chatsworth ★★★
28. Secrets of the Tower of London ★★★
29. Secrets of Henry VIII's Palace ★★★
30. Secrets of Althorp: The Spencers ★★★
31. Secrets: Richard III Revealed ★★★
32. The Rape of Europa ★★★★★
33. Particle Fever ★★★★
34. That Awkward Moment ★★★
35. The Internship ★★★
36. Now You See Me ★★★★
37. The World'd End ★★★
38. Saving Mr. Banks ★★★
39. Captain Phillips ★★★
40. The Spectacular Now ★★★
41. The To Do List ★★★
42. August: Osage County ★★
43. Snowpiercer ★★
44. Finding Vivian Maier ★★★★
45. Belle ★★★★½
46. Mockingjay Part I ★★★★
47. After Tiller ★★★★
48. Chef ★★★★
49. Begin Again ★★★★★
50. Walk of Shame ★
51. Lee Daniel's The Butler ★
52. The Lunchbox ★★★★
53. Marina Abramovic: The Artist Is Present ★★★★
54. Chasing Ice ★★★★
55. Ragnarock ★★★½
56. Troll Hunter ★★★




.Television.
*re-watch ^currently watching
1. The West Wing Season 3
2. Lost Girl Season 3
3. Sherlock Series 3
4. Sleepy Hollow Season 1
5. House of Cards Season 1
6. The Bletchley Circle Series 1
7. Skins Series 7
8. House of Cards Season 2
9. Teen Wolf Season 3
10. My Mad Fat Diary Series 2
11. Dollhouse Season 2
12. The Musketeers Series 1
13. The Fosters Season 1
14. Don't Trust The B**** in Apartment 23 Season 1
15. The Mindy Project Season 2
16. Don't Trust The B**** in Apartment 23 Season 2
17. Game of Thrones Season 4
18. Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Season 1
19. Arrow Season 2
20. The 100 Season 1
21. Orphan Black Season 2
22. Teen Wolf Season 4
23. Supernatural Season 9
24. Luther Series 3
25. The Bletchley Circle Series 2
26. The Tudors Season 1
27. Black Mirror Season 1
28. Black Mirror Season 2




.Books Read.
*reread ^currently reading
(currently stuck at the bottom of a fanfic well, but eventually I'll get back into the habit of reading actual books)
1. Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi*
2. Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi*
3. Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi
4. Isla and the Happily Ever After by Stephanie Perkins
5. Black Widow, Vol 1: The Finely Woven Thread by Nathan Edmondson
6. Hawkeye, Vol 1: My Life as a Weapon by Matt Fraction
7. Hawkeye, Vol 2: Little Hits by Matt Fraction
8. Hawkeye, Vol 3: L.A. Woman by Matt Fraction




.Books Bought/Acquired.
Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
It's Kind of a Funny Story Ned Vizzini
Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente
The Maze Runner by James Dashner
Legend by Marie Lu
Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi
Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut
We Were Liars by E. Lockhart
Unnatural Creatures by Neil Gaiman
Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
Black Widow: The Finely Woven Thread by Nathan Edmonson
Hawkeye: My Life As A Weapon by Matt Fraction
Hawkeye: Little Hits by Matt Fraction
Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Sex Criminals by Matt Fraction
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Crush by Richard Siken
Isla and the Happily Ever After by Stephanie Perkins
Outlander by Diana Gabaldon
Hart! A Vagrant by Kate Beaton
The Retribution of Mara Dyer by Michelle Hodkin
Vivian Maier Street Photography Edited by John Maloof
Ms. Marvel, #1: Meta Morphosis by G. Willow Wilson
Captain Marvel, Vol 1: In Pursuit of Flight by Kelly Sue DeConnick
The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making by Catherynne M. Valente
Collected Poems by Philip Larkin
Women Who Run with the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Ph.D
The Bone Season by Samantha Shannon




♪ Heavy Rotation ♪
"Please and Thank You" - Wildcat! Wildcat!
"Ghost" - Sir Sly
"Departed" - William Arcane
"Don't Wake Me" - Robots Don't Sleep
"Reunite" - Isbells
"What The Devil Has Made" - Matt Corby
"I'll Drown" by Sóley
"Made In Heights" by Murakami
"Souls A'Fire" by Matt Corby
"Running If You Call My Name" by Haim
"Runaway" by Matt Corby
"The Curse" by Agnes Obel
"Stay With Me" by Sam Smith
"Devil Inside" (INXS cover) by London Grammar
"Awake" by Tycho
"Recover" by CHVRCHES
"Strong" by London Grammar
"Bird in the Thyme" by Tiny Ruins
"The Cold" by exitmusic
"You're the Best" by Wet
"Here With Me" by Susie Suh and Robot Koch
"When You Call" by July Child
"Rebirth" by Vancouver Sleep Clinic
"Sons and Daughters" by Allman Brown f. Liz Lawrence
"Foreigner" by The Wild Reeds
"Let No Grief" by The Wild Reeds
"Drowning" By Banks
"Silhouette" by Active Child feat. Ellie Goudling
"Distance Kills" by Nolita Knights
"Lessons" by Sohn
"The Greatest View" by Flume feat. Isabella Manfredi
"End of the Affair" by Ben Howard
"Elastic Heart" by Sia f. The Weeknd & Diplo
"Bloodstream" by Ed Sheeran
"Breathe In" by Japanese Wallpaper f. Wafia
"Stakes" by Vancouver Sleep Clinic
"Take It Easy" by Jetta
"Swing Tree" by Discovery
"Blood" by Osca
"This Morning" by Matt Corby and Missy Higgins
"Ring A Bell" by Noah Gundersen
"Heart Beats Slow" by Angus & Julia Stone
"Strange Enough" by VÉRITÉ
"I Found" by Amber Run
"The Keeper" by Bonobo (Banks remix)
"Waiting Game" by Banks
"Stay Alive" by Vanbot
"Is This How You Feel?" by The Preatures
"Bring Me When You Go" by Harriet
"Song For Zula" by Phosphorescent
"Cain" by Cousin Marnie
"Centuries" by Fall Out Boy
"Red Eyes" by The War On Drugs
"Byegone" by Volcano Chair
"Inferno" by Sir Sly f. Lizzy Plapinger of MSMR
"Cavalier" by James Vincent McMorrow
"OctaHate" by Ryn Weaver
"Hummed Low" by Odessa Rose
"Coffee" by Sylvan Esso
"The Gospel of John Hurt" by Alt-J
"Heaven Ain't High" by LSBV
"In The Woods Somewhere" by Hozier
"I'll Be Good" by Jaymes Young
"Talking Body" by Tove Lo
"Never Come Down" by Brave Shores
"Give Me Something" by Seafret
"My Hollow Head" by The Diamond Light
"Mother & Father" by Broods
"Magdalene" by Bear's Den
"Is There Somewhere" by Halsey
"Hold Back The River" by James Bay
"Black Mud" (Aquilo remix) by Layla
"Human" by Aquilo




.Gigs, Travel, Etc.
1. Las Vegas Downtown Project - January 18 through 19
2. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #29 - January 25
3. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #30 - February 9
4. Songs From A Room: Las Vegas #1 - March 1
5. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #31 - March 9
6. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #32 - April 6
7. The National @ The Santa Barbara Bowl - April 25
8. Hearst Castle @ San Simeon, CA - April 26
9. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #33 - April 30
10. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #34 - May 18
11. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #35 - May 30
12. Governors Ball @ Randall's Island (New York) - June 6 through 8
13. New York City - June 5 through 11
14. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #36 - June 20
15. Edinburgh/London - June 23 through July 3
16. Songs From A Room: London - July 2
17. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #37 - July 18
18. San Diego Comic Con International - July 24 though 27
19. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #38 - July 30
20. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #39 - August 15
21. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #40 - August 16
22. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #41 - August 27
23. Zella Day @ The Echo - September 10
24. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #42 - September 14
25. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #43 - October 12
26. Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness @ The Fonda Theatre - October 15
27. Orlando, Florida (Universal Studios Orlando & Disney World) - October 16 through 20
28. Canaveral National Seashore - October 19
29. Rhian in town - November 20 through 30
30. Songs From A Room: Los Angeles #45 - November 22




.QuoteUnquote.

"I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2am, I am gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis, I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don't belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn't happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don't see the lightning, but you hear the echoes." - Anna Peters

"All I ever really want to know is how other people are making it through life - where do they put their body, hour by hour, and how do they cope inside of it." - Miranda July, It Chooses You

"I will bleed for better reasons this year." - Y.Z, An eight word resolution

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back? There are some things that time cannon mend." - J.R.R. Tolkien

"I am selfish, private and easily bored. Will this be a problem?" - Neil Gaiman, A Study in Emerald

"My father had taught me to be nice first, because you can always be mean later, but once you've been mean to someone, they won't believe the nice anymore. So be nice, be nice, until it's time to stop being nice, then destroy them." - Laurell K. Hamilton

"Maybe you think you’ll be entitled to more happiness later by forgoing all of it now, but it doesn’t work that way. Happiness takes as much practice as unhappiness does. It’s by living that you live more. By waiting you wait more. Every waiting day makes your life a little less. Every lonely day makes you a little smaller. Every day you put off your life makes you less capable of living it." — Ann Brashares, Sisterhood Everlasting

"I want something else. I’m not even sure what to call it anymore except I know it feels roomy and it’s drenched in sunlight and it’s weightless and I know it’s not cheap. It’s probably not even real." — Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves

"The truth is, I pretend to be a cynic, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may never get." - Joanna Hoffman

"Learn to say no without explaining yourself." - unknown

"Stop romanticizing people who hurt you." - Six Word Story #48

"Some people feel like they don’t deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past." — Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

"I know who I was this morning, but I’ve changed a few times since then." - Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass

"Are you scared? Or are you not ready? There is a difference." — Unique Quietness

"I totally remember what it felt like to be so full…Full of promise, full of dreams, full of shit. Mostly just full of yourself. So full you’re bursting. And then you get out into the world, and people empty you out, little by little, like air from a balloon…You try like hell to fill yourself up with fresh air, from you and from other people. But back then…it was so damn effortless to feel full, you know? All you had to do was breathe." - Jonathan Tropper

"I’m not where I need to be, but thank god I’m not where I used to be." - unknown

"If people want to let you go, just let them do it. They may not understand who you are. So don’t play around with fire; don’t give them their cake and let them eat it too. Here is your rule of thumb: they either commit to you or get none of you." — Joey Furjanic, The Heartbreak Hotel: How Long Will You Stay?

"People love talking, and I have never been a huge talker. I carry on an inner monologue, but the words often don’t reach my lips." — Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl

"So called ‘late-bloomers’ get a bad rap. Sometimes the people with the greatest potential often take the longest to find their path because their sensitivity is a double edged sword- it lives at the heart of their brilliance, but it also makes them more susceptible to life’s pains. Good thing we aren’t being penalized for handing in our purpose late. The soul doesn’t know a thing about deadlines." — Jeff Brown

"Inside us there is a word we cannot pronounce and that is who we are." — Anthony Marra

"If you’re struggling, you deserve to make self-care a priority. Whether that means lying in bed all day, eating comfort food, putting off homework, crying, sleeping, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, watching your favorite tv show, or doing nothing at all — give yourself permission to put your healing first. Quiet the voice telling you to do more and be more, and today, whatever you do, let it be enough. Feel your feelings, breathe, and be gentle with yourself. Acknowledge that you’re doing the best you can to cope and survive. And trust that during this time of struggle, it’s enough." — Daniell Koepke

"I am constantly torn between wanting to improve myself and wanting to destroy myself." - unknown

"I don’t know what’s the matter with me—why I’m so adept at distance, why I feel so remote from things, why life feels like a rumour." — David Shields

"Remember yourself as a little girl; she is counting on you to protect her." - unknown

"I had learned early to assume something dark and lethal hidden at the heart of anything I loved. When I couldn’t find it, I responded, bewildered and wary, in the only way I knew how: by planting it there myself." — Tana French, In the Woods

"I am trying to see things in perspective. My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter chocolate chip bagel. I know she cannot have this, because chocolate makes dogs very sick. My dog does not understand this. She pouts and wraps herself around my leg like a scarf and purrs and tries to convince me to give her just a tiny bit. When I do not give in, she eventually gives up and lays in the corner, under the piano, drooping and sad. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dog’s. When I want something with my whole being, and the universe withholds it from me, I hope the universe thinks to herself: "Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, but she does not understand how it will hurt." — THEORIES ABOUT THE UNIVERSE by Blythe Baird

"Sometimes you need to burn bridges to stop yourself from crossing them again." — L. Gabriel

"Here is the world. Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid." — Frederick Buechner

"Learn to say ‘no’ without explaining yourself." - unknown

"My only regret is that I didn’t tell enough people to fuck off." -lule-bell.tumblr.com

"Don’t confuse my personality with my attitude. My personality is who I am. My attitude depends on who you are." — Frank Ocean

"I told her once I wasn’t good at anything. She told me survival is a talent." — Girl, Interrupted

"Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are." - Unknown

"My life is a struggle between my need for acceptance, my fear of rejection, and a desire to not care at all." — Anonymous

"Every introvert alive knows the exquisite pleasure of stepping from the clamor of a party into the bathroom and closing the door." — Sophia Dembling - The Introvert’s Way: Living a Quiet Life in a Noisy World

"The person who broke you can’t be the one to fix you. Remember that." - Unknown

"A woman sitting by herself is not waiting for you." — Caitlin Stasey

"Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was just red." — Kait Rokowsk

"It’s okay if the only thing you did today was breathe." - Unknown

"No one can tell what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side. Or you don’t." — Stephen King, The Stand

"One of the risks of being quiet is that the other people can fill your silence with their own interpretation: You’re bored. You’re depressed. You’re shy. You’re stuck up. You’re judgemental. When others can’t read us, they write their own story—not always one we choose or that’s true to who we are." — Sophia Dembling’s The Introvert’s Way

"I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go." — Gaiman, Neil. The Sandman

"Sometimes, I feel like ripping apart my skin and searching for a reason for why I feel this empty. Maybe my veins are tangled, or something is lodged in my ribcage. Because it feels like something inside of me is missing or broken." - Unknown

"I’m self-sufficient. I spend a lot of time on my own and I shut off quite easily. When I communicate, I communicate 900 per cent, then I shut off, which scares people sometimes." — Bjork on ‘Self-Sufficiency’